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I've never been a self-assurance girl.

I make up myself, dance for curve, tattooing for cool, speak English for charmed. All for make myself happy. So I would be gorgeous, then I'll have confidence.

My character is diffident and gloomy. I have sentimentalities from time to time. I simply have a good nature. Yet I don't have a very healthy body. I get sick easily.

I've never had a close mate, a boyfriend, even a few ordinary friends, they can be counted on one of my hand, and I don't really contact them usually. Oh, fuck this circumstances, I am involuntary. One cannot change his character simple. Whether good and bad, I ought to remain personalized.

I used to walk on the thin ice, live in cool shades. What you think of me, it doesn't matter. I am cool with everything. When I was in childhood, I don't know anything, I don't fear anything. I was so happy to imitated Michelle Yeoh. Such is cool to punched someone ran away. Then nobody could bullying me. Who wouldn't wanna stay in childhood? It's a paradise, baby! Oftenly no annoyances.

People in the arena but beyond our control. I need to be diligent and conscious at present. Find excuses seldom, wasn't concerned by my strange moods. Live in realm of thoughts, instead in La Vita È Bella.

My realm of thoughts are obvious haven't reached a good point. It's cheerful to make an introspection, good for revolves around my life experiences.

Daddy says I don't have emotional quotient. I admit that this is predetermined by my gene, I convinced that. Fortunately that I sort of have an eye for look persons accurate, I rarely get pains hence. Which is why I am ignorant of worldly affairs.

My life in future, whether good or bad, wonderful or dull, starlit or poor...I'd say 3 words: chop，you，up. -- Alice and flower

译文：

我其实从来不是一个有自信的女孩。

我化妆、纹身、唱歌、跳舞、说英语是为了让自己开心起来，这样会变得洋气。如此，自信也就自然而然地洋溢。

我的性格内向、阴郁，时不时多愁善感，索性有较好的脾气，不太容易生气。身体却好似不领情，总是生病。

即便没有闺密和男票，普通朋友也屈指可数，更不经常联系。去它妈的，这又不是我自愿的。一个人的性格不能说改就改，好歹要保留点个性。

我习惯如敛薄冰，住在孤寂里。你怎么想，我都没关系。我对什么都冷静。童年无忌，不懂事也不怕事。很乐意模仿杨紫琼，能把人打得落花流水是很酷的一件事。然后谁也不敢来欺负我。谁不想留在童年，不为烦恼忧心？童年是一块福地，宝贝儿~通常是没有烦恼的。

人在江湖，身不由己。现下，我需要勤快一些、有觉悟些。不常为自己找借口，不常为莫名情绪叨扰。不常活得无趣。

人活的不是人生，是境界。我的境界显而易见还没达到水准，故而多作反思有益于人生周转。

总被爹地说情商不高，基因而定，我深信。还好看人还算准，没吃过什么亏。这大概就是我不谙世事的原理。

将来的人生，无论好坏、精彩，乏味、星光璀璨、一贫如洗……我都说三个字：去、你、的。

--花与爱丽丝